This is one of my favorite verses of all time, and I will say... lately, it has a new meaning. In case you haven't heard the news yet. We are expecting! God-willing, baby Morgan will arrive sometime between March 20-March 26... smack-dab in the middle of baseball season! There isn't a whole lot of visible evidence (and I apologize for the poor quality of the photo below), but the tiny baby bump first showed up around 12 weeks, which is the photo you can see below. We are just over 14 weeks now, and I have so many reasons to be joyful: the clothes are getting tighter, the nausea and sickness have (FINALLY-- Praise God!) begun to phase out, and I'm beginning to believe that this is really happening! We are really going to have a baby this time!
God has been working in our lives, and in my feeble human mind-- it seems like this MUST be over-time for our great God!! It is amazing to look back over the past year and a half, and see the many things God has been weaving into our story! An overwhelming theme of these many lessons seems to be "Just wait and see, Annah Grace, you don't have to see the WHOLE picture at once. TRUST ME! I am in control. My plans for you are good, and they will be revealed to you in MY time. Just trust and obey..." God is working on my patience. I can feel Him changing my heart. I am so grateful that He hasn't given up yet because I am one stubborn girl.
I have been struggling with a lot of fear with this pregnancy. Not necessarily fear that I admitted readily, but I was not willing to really let it sink in that we are pregnant until very recently. I didn't want to be excited yet. I didn't want to tell anyone for a while. I didn't even tell my family until we were past the 8 week mark, and just made it facebook official after my 14 week check up. But I have really been trying to cast that anxiety on the Lord because I know He cares for me! I know that fear doesn't come from Him. So I'm finally talking about our sweet baby, and allowing myself to think and dream of our sweet baby! I cannot WAIT until Oct. 25th when I will hopefully learn if our sweet baby is going to be a boy or girl. (I'm really trying to avoid saying "it" in reference to our little buddy-- because "it" just feels wrong. I have NO idea how my friends that choose to wait to find out the sex do it!!)
There is a great song called "Wait and See" that Brandon Heath sings. These lyrics really play on repeat in my head during most days...
There is hope, for me yet,
Because God won't forget,
All the plans HE's made for me
I have to wait and see,
HE's not finished with me yet
Still wonderin' why I'm here.
Still wrestling with my fear
But oh... HE's up to something,
And the farther out I go,
I've seen enough to know
That I'm not here for nothin'...
He's up to somethin'.
Among many other things-- our move home, job changes for both me and Jefforey, our baby, the loss we've experienced in the past couple of years-- we have also answered a call into part-time youth ministry at First Methodist Church in Albertville. (I promise there will be more on this subject later!) We started that new part-time job on Sept. 9th. So we know, we are not here for our comfort, or our pleasure! We know God is up to something BIG in our lives, and I am so thankful that He chooses to use unqualified, undeserving sinners to work miracles in His amazing master plan! As always, your prayers are appreciated!
